Mammogram and Ultrasound Appointment

The day of my mammogram and ultrasound appointment was on May 16th. I won't forget that date because it was my 13th anniversary at my company. I was over the 12 year mark which meant I receive 4 weeks of vacation. Although that day wasn't a day of celebration for me. I went to the test by myself since I didn't feel anything would really go wrong. I felt much better after I spoke to my doctor that it was probably nothing. I was just double checking to make sure. When I went into the room for the mammogram I saw this big machine that looked like a big vice. I heard about mammograms, however I had no idea they looked so big and somewhat intimidating. It basically squeezes each breast like someone just put a clamp down and pressed really hard. It was painful, but I was glad each clamp didn't last that long. It seemed like they took a ton of pictures in different positions. They put something over my lump which looked like a small round sticker the size of a penny with a round little metal ball in the middle. This was to get a better shot of the lump and the surrounding area. I took at glimpse at the screen which I probably shouldn't have. I thought I saw a couple more lumps, but then again I had no idea what I was looking at. The tech didn't say a word the whole time. I was starting to worry. I was hoping I would hear her say everything looks fine and going to be okay. When she was finished she basically just said good luck. At that point I was thinking could it possibly be something I should worry about? Anyway, the next step was the ultrasound. The ultrasound tech was more open with me about what she saw. At first she was making me feel better. She said to me that I don't need to worry and nothing looks suspicious to her. She also said that many young women have these lumps. Then I was like wait a minute. I looked at the screen and saw a couple more lumps. What do you mean more lumps? There was one smaller lump behind the lump that I felt which was the biggest. Then another tiny lump around the area. For some reason when I saw them I felt something was wrong and they didn't look right to me. She kept trying to convince me not to worry and that I was going to be okay. When I was finished I had to wait about an hour before I could meet with the radiogist. That hour dragged on forever. The tech came out and told me it would be a wait and she was in with another patient. She tried to tell me everything will be alright. There was a phone in the waiting room and I decided to call my husband at work. When he answered I told him I was really scared and nervous and I started to cry. He felt really bad for not being there with me. He had no idea that I would be going through this time of anticipation by myself. He thought it would be a simple test and that everything would turn out fine. There was a chance, however it wasn't fine. When I saw the radiologist she told me that the lumps were not cystic meaning that because they were solid I would need a biopsy. I asked her how they looked to her and she couldn't give me a direct answer. I just wanted her to say everything was going to be okay, but she couldn't. She just told me that they are here for me and that they know it's scary, but they couldn't say anything until they knew for sure. At that point I was nervous. I drove home in tears and was thinking this could possibly be breast cancer. They sent the x-rays and reports to my OBGYN and he called me in a few days. Those few days really dragged.